The contradiction

I found this again I thought id share it

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The Greatest Irony Of Love

The greatest irony of love. Loving the right person at the wrong time, Having the wrong person when the time is right, And finding out you love someone right after That person walks out of your life. And sometimes, you think you're already over a person, Until you see them smile at you again, You'll suddenly realize that you're really not. For some, they think that letting go is one way Of expressing how much you love the person, By sacrificing your happiness for theirs, Without realizing that the other person's Doing the same thing for them.

Most relationships tend to fail Not because of the absence of love; Love is always present, It's just that one is being loved too much And the other was being loved too little.
We always fall in love with the person we think we love, Only to discover that what we loved about them fades. Bad experiences are always remembered, But it's the wonderful memories that are captured To remind us that there are brighter days ahead And that happiness exists.

You need to learn to let go when you're hurting too much, Realize that sometimes love just isn't enough And accept the fact that things aren't always going to be the same. There is someone out there who will love you more. It's all the thought you put into your decisions That impairs your judgment When your heart already knows what you need to do.

Sometimes, in our relentless efforts to find the person we love we fail to recognize and appreciate the people who love us. We miss out on so many beautiful things and simply because we allow ourselves to be enslaved by our own selfish concerns. Go for the man of deeds and not for the man of words for you will find rewarding happiness not with the man you love but the man who loves you more.
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The best lovers are those capable of loving from a distance far enough to allow the person to grow, but never too far to feel the love deep within your being. To let go of someone doesn’t mean you have to stop loving, it only means that you allow that person to find his own happiness without expecting him to come back. Letting go is not just setting the other person free, but it is also setting yourself free from all bitterness, hatred, and anger that keep in your heart. Do not let the bitterness scare away your strength and weaken your faith, and never allow pain to dishearten you, but rather let yourself grow with wisdom in bearing it. You may find peace in just loving someone from a distance not expecting anything in return.

But be careful, for this can sustain life but can never give enough room for us to grow. We can all survive with just beautiful memories of the past but real peace and happiness come only with open acceptance of what reality is today. There comes a time in our lives when we chance upon someone so nice and beautiful and we just find ourselves getting so intensely attracted to that person. This feeling soon become a part of our everyday lives and eventually consumes our thoughts and actions. The sad part of it is when we begin to realize that this person feels nothing more for us than just a friendship. We start our desperate attempt to get noticed and be closer but in the end our efforts are still unrewarded and we end up being sorry for ourselves. You don't have to forget someone you love. What you need to learn is how to accept the verdict of reality without being bitter or sorry for yourself.

Believe me, you would be better off giving that dedication and love to someone more deserving. Don't let your heart run your life, be sensible and let your mind speak for itself. Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well. Always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow. If you lose love that doesn't mean that you failed in love. Cry if you have to, but make it sure that the tears wash away the hurt and the bitterness that the past has left with you. Let go of yesterday and love will find its way back to you. And when it does, pray that it may be the love that will stay and last a lifetime.

Listen to your heart. Even though it's on the left side, it's always right.

Im Only Human

So this past week ive been either excited or not caring about my birthday coming up, I mean it is just another day and it is just another number. Sometimes I dont see whats significant about it since nothing special really happens that day. To be honest ive tried making it special and this year I kind of wanna make it special again only because its a new decade, might as well try something new for myself and not worry if people will make it special for me. But then again, it would be kind of lame throwing a party for myself or asking people to join me or so. Heh I kind of dont care even though its my lucky number ive been told numerous times "Its just another number" I dont get why I should be happy about it after all these past years as ive stated its just another day.

I want to make it special for myself but for once again I kind of wanna see if anyone else but me will try to do something for me.
"It feels like the heavens had been giving me signs that all pertain to you. However, today was not a sign, but a warning. Maybe it is God's way for making me realize that the feeling of dying inside is different from death itself. I can still cope.

And it is better to die a little inside because I have the chance to fix the situation, if anything. "

Im only human, I cant always talk, I cant always be interesting, I cant always have something to say, But I can say I can try. No ones perfect in my opinion. I keep getting these thought of just stop trying and give up cause I know deep down nothings going to happen. I wonder if these are one of those things were 2 people will like each other but it doesnt go any where and they both move on. If this is the case,I dont see myself trying anymore only because im not happy with myself. Im not happy with how I am. Ive always been trying to change that but I keep being told take baby steps first or figure out whats really important for your benefit or even give the time to those who are worth your time if there giving you their time.

Im only trying to get close sometimes I improve. sometimes I fall. But isnt life supposed to be that way anyways? Theres always going to be a time for everything ive learned and im always going to tell myself good things come to those who wait. I will wait and see what life has to offer or come up tomorrow or even the next day. Ive set goals to accomplish and I feel held back from all my emotions I cant really express cause Ive forgotten how to. I mean its simple for me to say "hey I like you cause I think your smart cute and funny" but I already know you know that and I guess I feel limited to expressing how I feel about you. Or even in general with people around me, I just let things slide and just say what ever fuck it or even blow it off.

One of my past blogs I talked about watching Disney princess movies and to tell you ive been watching a lot of Disney movies and heh I still Learn somethiing from them that I didnt realize back then. So far my fav song from a Disney movie right now is between "Part of that world" or "Colors of the wind"

Heh Im only human to feel insecure, im only human to feel these annoying emotions no one wants to feel. But I cant help it sometimes. I should know when to stop and just leave it alone when it hurts but something keeps telling me its going to get better. But when? When I make the effort to make it better? If its not enough then I guess so, I have a dream, I have a wish, I have a list of things id like to do before I die, I know ill do it some day.

"You will be the answer to someone's happily ever after but it wont be in this one. "

Hmm I kind of see what your trying to tell me but I wanna just say IDGAF anymore and just blow off everything. But if I do then what next?

Sigh,,,,,,,,

Its ok to be single.

Birthday wishes/ideas

Wow turning 17, my some what "lucky number" haha end of this month I will be 17 heh. Wow I cant believe im more excited about this birthday this year than any other year yet some reason I have a feeling its going to be like all the other years where I could honestly care less. I guess whats significant this year is that 17 is my lucky number and hopefully something good will happen this year. Just hoping, another significant thing is im single. haha just kidding that not significant. Sigh im getting tired of cow dolls. Kinda wanting different things now so just in case no one knows what to get me I guess I could help haha.

Gift Cards from-
H&M
Aeropostale
Anchor Blue
Jamba Juice
Starbucks
Target
Or those visa ones

Other ideas
Sharpies(MULTIPUL COLORS PLEASE <3)
This jacket Medium in Charcoal or Black
http://cgi.ebay.com/Men-Stylish-Hoodie-Jacket-Shirt-Charcoal-SS306-Sz-M_W0QQitemZ260547920956QQcmdZViewItemQQptZUS_CSA_MC_Shirts?hash=item3ca9ddc43c

Food
Cookies
Brownies

Or Cash would be fine too need to pay for things

haha does that help anyone? hmm if so surprise mee x3

We are not afraid of love. We are afraid of rejection. Afraid to hear the word goodbye instead of feeling affection. Afraid that what we do is never enough. Afraid that we may experience one-sided love. Afraid of wasting years. Afraid of shedding tears. Afraid that our heart may shatter into a million pieces of pain. Afraid that we'll never be the same. Afraid of hearing surprising confessions. Afraid of unanswered questions. Afraid of being unsure. Afraid of losing something we worked so hard for